Thursday, May 8, 2014

if i have the time machine

can we turning back in time ?

how i wish i have the time machine .which i can turn back the time where we have a very long conversation ,without just "ohh yeke" "hmm okay" .the time where i can see your effort to talk to me first ,your effort to make it work .dont you ever realize ,there is no more "love you" at the end of our conversation ?hahaha .i just remember one picture you'd sent to me when i dont reply your "love you" ,there is a quote : "what is the worst way to respond to "i love you" ?"........."massage seen" .ha ha ha .
im not asking you to rply it but at least show me some effort .i know ,it is not fair to measure your love thru you say 'love you" or not .but ....*sigh* i dont know what to say anymore .

do you know what the worst feeling ever ?
caught you still keep in touch with ..........yeah ,you know who is it .no need to mention the name here .im not mad .i am NOT .im just jealous perhaps .
am i controlling him ?!!ohh my god .it is really not my intention .*double big sigh* .HAMIIIIIIII .wake up pls .

mybe there is a reason to leave him .but there are millions reason to stay with him .perhaps ,countless reasons to stay madly in love with him .
why ?
bcs i love him and will never let him go .bcs i feel blessed to know him and loved by him .too many things he had sacrifice for me .and one of the best thing ever is : see him in front of me .accompany me when i told him i feel fucking bored here .hahahah .

ya ALLAH ,i really be grateful to YOU bcs give me chances to know him ,to meet him in my life .i couldn't asking more ,just let him be my zauj to guide my whole entire life .ameenn .hehehehe *k tetiba rse gedik plak* HAHAHAHAH lol .

i accept him the way he is .and its okay la kalau setakat tk rply "love you" tu .you no need to say it ,i can see it thru all your actions .and im sorry if i controlling you .seriously ,it is not my intention at all !and sorry for the first pharagraph in this entry .that is only my thought and no need to take it serious .hmmm .mcm tk bersyukur plak ,merungut itu ini kan .hmmm how awful i am .dh kne layan mcm princess pun tk reti bersyukur .urghhhhhh .hami hami ...mohon hantuk kepala tu sikit dkt dinding !haish .

baru dia rply "ohh yeke" "hmm okay" dh merungut .ntah pape .tak fikir plak yg dia snggup naik moto drpd shah alam dtg sini semata nk teman kan kau tu ?!hmmmm .snggup kne hujan bagai .apa kau fikir shah alam-subang tu dkt sgt la ?!ya ALLAH hami ,manusia apa la kau ni .tk reti bersyukur lngsng ! :(
k tetiba rse teruk gler .hmmm ,manusia .simply said .kesalahan org tu sng je nk nmpk ,kebaikan ?buat baik besar mana pun ,pejam mata je pura2 tk nmpak .*sigh* and im human too .make a lot of mistakes and tk prnh bersyukur dgn apa yg ada .haish .

if i really have the time machine .i couldn't ask to change it based on what i want .i just want to change myself to be a better person .manusia yg reti bersyukur sikit .hahahahah .sentap bak hang ayat .padan muka to myself .HAHAHA .

okay la ,should stop rn .but before that ,muhamad faiz bin mahfudz , im sorry bcs u dpt buah hati yg tk reti bersyukur mcm ni .hahaha .i promise tkkn merungut pape lg dh .really grateful be in love with you ,and treated like a princess .ahaks .after all ,i love you and fucking miss you .
kbye .*lambai2 tgn* haha .terima la lambaian tgn drpd manusia tk reti bersyukur ni .hahahahah k gurau .

assalamualaikum :)

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