Monday, October 28, 2013

Ermm ermm ermm

Esok nk keluar dgn suraya !!!!!!!!!!!!!yeyyy ,alhamdulillah .hehehehe .happy me is happy .excited nya nk jpe su .ermmmm ,td dpt email yg ckp aku dpt pegi iv scholarship .alhamdulillah .tp tktau nk pegi ke tak nak .so conclusion nya ,ikut jela decision mak and ayah ,kalau mak suruh pegi then aku pegi la .tp ikut kn hati ,malas nya nk pegi .urghhh !!!

Tetiba teringat cter good doctor .after final snggup tk tido langsung semata2 nk habis kan cter good doctor tu .pelakon2 dia sumpah la hensem tahap asdfghjkl !drop dead punya hensem la .hahahahaha .ada satu dialog dia ni yg aku suka "if you love someone without any condition ,you already have qualification to love him/her" .well betul la tu apa dia kata .tp cter tu setiap episode mst ada bnde yg sedih ,so malam tu mmg keje nya mengalir je la air mata aku .feeling habis la .hahahahahahah .

"I can't express my love to you with words ,even you add all of the world ,its not enough ,till my tears dry ,till my heart wears out ,the love that i want and want is you" .hmmm ni lagu ost cter good doctor tu .best en lirik dia ,seriously aku suka gler cter ni !!hahahahhaah .

Hmm okay la .tktau dh nk update apa .hehehehe .k bye .xoxo

Saturday, October 26, 2013

Bosantothemax

What to do .what to do .hmmm ,serious bosan la .tkde bnde lngsng nk buat .nk keluar pun tkde mood ,so ddk dlm bilik .TIDURRRRR !!Hahahahaahha .qada tido time final punya pasal ,satu hari ni aku tido je .terjaga pun sbb mior call kata nk jpe .kalau dia tk call ,mmg smpai malam kot aku tertido .hahahahhhaah .alarm ?hmm ,mmg saja tknk buat alarm .and nasib baik aku tk off phone je td ,kalau tk mmg tk terjaga lngsng .

Dr smlm serious tkde mood .spe punca ?hmm ,malas nk cter .tkde benefit pun kalau aku cter dkt sini .buat sakit hati je .i thought he was changed ,but ........dr dulu sama je .please la kalau kau tk suka ,jgn bg harapan .sorry not sorry ,im give up .malas .serious malas .im tired to fix it up .so just let it go .

Plan nk keluar sama then ble esok or lusa nk keluar tu ,tetiba cancel .kalau sekali dua kali tkpe la .blh la aku consider ada hal penting ke apa .ini tak .berkali-kali !!!spe je yg tk bengang mcm tu en .apa kau fikir aku ni anak patung ke weh ?!haih ,sabar hami sabar .byk kn istighfar .tkde effect kalau kau marah org yg tkde perasaan tu .hmmmm ..inhale exhale .fuhh fuhh ..

Sepatut nya hari ni aku pegi tikl sbb graduation day .dh janji pun dgn junior semua nk jpe .tp disebabkan DIA aku tkde mood langsung nk keluar .soooooo sorry wahai adik2 ,serious tkde niat pun nk cancel jpe korg hari ni .akak betul2 nk tgk korg naik pentas ,graduate .tpi kalau pegi time tkde mood ,bkn nya blh gelak2 pun .nnt muka ketat je ,and org lain plak yg terasa ,so better ddk je dlm bilik sensorg .haih .

Td time turun lunch ,terserempak dgn choin .seboleh2 nya aku buat2 tk nmpk ,tp memandang kn dia tegur dulu so aku pun okay jela nk tegur dia balik .ohh ,rupa nya dia balik rumah .then dtg sini balik hari rabu nnt utk muet .rabu ?aku pun pelik sbb dia kata dkt aku muet dia selasa ,then nk dtg rabu ?hmm ,mybe dia salah ckp or aku yg salah dgr kot .hahhaaha .rajin gler en ulang alik dtg UM ni .haish ,stay jela sini smpai muet habis .

Spe je tk sentap kalau tetiba unfollow dkt twitter and ble face to face pura2 buat baik .thats why la kalau blh mmg aku tknk jpe langsung dgn si choin tu .sbb tktau nk buat expression apa kalau jpe dia .tp dh dia yg tegur dulu ,tkkn la aku nk buat bodo je .pura2 buat tk dgr ?hmm ,tu bukan cara aku la .mcm bdk2 nk pura2 bagai .

Friday, October 25, 2013

Last dayyyyy sem 1 !!hikhok

Woahhhh ,dh lama nya tk tulis entry .hehehe .today is the last day for sem 1 in PASUM .wow ,dh habis pun sem 1 .cepat gler en masa berlalu .and today also last day final exam .serioustalk soalan final susah tahap 82846362939173746392027373637 ,sng cter tahap infiniti la .tutorial soalan lain ,tetiba keluar soalan dlm final yg tk prh bljr .perghh ,rasa mcm nk menjerit je dlm exam hall tu .ikut kn hati rasa mcm nk bangun then jerit kuat2 je ,tp ble fikir yg dlm exam hall tu ada semua bdk PASUM ,kalau aku buat keje gler tu ofcourse la malu gler ,so aku sabar kn jela hati .hahahahahahahah .

And one more thing ,aku tk suka tmpt aku dlm exam hall .time midsem ,aku ddk blkg .so aku bebas nk buat apa pun ,tkde spe nmpk .then time final ni tetiba kne ddk depan .nk gerak kn kerusi and nk tido pun rasa awkward gler .haish ,nk ddk blkg balik la !!urghhh .hmmm ,choin ddk blkg sekali .time final ni la aku baru nmpk dia .before ni langsung tk nmpk ,ingt kn dh disappeared dr PASUM ni .hahahahaha .maaf choin ,just kidding .before2 ni ada la jgk aku nmpk hazim ,zaid dkt cafe .yg dia ,langsung tk nmpk .hmmm ,biar la dkt dia .harap dia dh bahagia .

Hari tu ada nmpk satu gmba time dkt tikl dulu .ada gmba su .hmmmm ,sumpah tk tipu yg aku rindu gler dkt dia .dh la time tu stay up sorg2 ,tetiba teringat su .terus mood swing and satu apa pun yg aku study tk masuk lngsng .nk tegur ,tp awkward gler kot !!yes ,mmg la aku dh mntk maaf .tp cara dia layan aku after bnde tu jadi ,serious lain gler .hmm ,no comment la .biar kn jela ,aku pun tktau dh nk buat apa lg .but seriously i really miss her .kalau blh la ,one find day ,aku nk peluk su ,nk gelak sama2 ,nk cter semua bnde yg jd ,nk nangis2 dpn su .macam before ni dkt tikl .i wish and really hope its happen one find day .hmmm ...

Okay ,no more sedih2 .skrg ni cter pasal final plak .hahahhhha .tknk sedih tp cter psal final .lols, lagi la bertambah sedih .hmm ,aku tktau la pass ke tk masuk sem 2 .tk tau result mcm apa sbb jwb exam pun mcm tutttttttt .haih ,sedih and terkilan sbb tk mampu nk buat mak and ayah bangga dgn result exam mcm time sek dulu .hmmm ,mom dad i ask for your appologise .im soooooo sorry :( .

Hah ,aku dh okay dgn daus .hahahahaha .sejak ble la aku gaduh dgn dia ,yg tetiba dh okay .hmmm ,sumpah terserlah la kebengongan aku .hehehehe .mksud aku okay tu bkn la before ni kteorg gaduh .just okay je .hahahaha .apa aku mengarut ni woii ??hmm ,lantak la .harap korg yg baca ni faham la apa yg aku cuba smpai kn sbb aku pun tktau nk explain mcm mana .hohohoho .

But sometimes sumpah sentap dgn dia .aku wassep ,reply dh la lmbt ,pastu tetiba tk reply .tgk last seen lg menyakit kn hati .blh je wassep org lain,tp tk reply aku pnya wassep .huhh .seboleh2 nya aku sabar je sbb tknk rosak kn mood .haish ,bnde ni lg malas aku nk cter .k ,tukar topik .next ..

Hmmm .nk cter apa lg eh ?rasa mcm tkde bnde je dh nk tulis .k bye2 guys .nnt ada masa ,aku update la lg .heheheheeh .assalamualaikum .

Monday, October 14, 2013

I miss you suraya hamizan .

Esok raya haji ,so thats mean two more days for final exam !!! Omg omg ,so nervous la !okay ,tknk cter pasal final .aku update blog ni pun dgn niat nk lupa kn jap pasal final .stress gler la bljr last minute ni .drpd last week asyik main2 je ,study week aku dibazirkan dgn main2 !see ,salah diri sendiri kot .spe suruh en bazir masa .hah ,kn diri sndiri yg susah .haish..

Terkilan nya sbb bazir masa dgn buat bnde sia2 .main ,tidur ,online ,movie marathon ,runningman marathon .padahal dh berazam kot nk tebus balik apa aku dh buat time midsem dulu ,tp .........hmmmm , ==" .hami ,ni final hami .FINAL !!!! urghhhh .

Tapi aku lg terkilan and sedih ble fikir pasal suraya .spe je yg tk sedih ble bestfriend sndiri lupa kn kte en .yes i admit ,my fault .mula2 tu mmg la salah aku .tp aku dh say sorry and mengaku salah aku .and aku dh tk contact pun lelaki tu ,sumpah demi ALLAH ,aku tkde niat langsung nk ngorat lelaki yg su suka tu .tkde niat lngsng nk sakit kn hati su .

Ble aku sedar yg su marah aku ,terus aku tk cntact dh mamat tu .YA ALLAH ,su ..kte blh bersumpah yg kte tkde pape pun dgn dia .knp su buat kte mcm ni ?acah2 janji tknk lost contact ,tknk putus friendship no matter whats happen .but now ??spe yg lari kn diri dr spe ?kte okay je balas tweet su ,nk keluar dgn su .tp spe yg tk layan ?spe yg cancel last minute time lepak sama tu ?spe yg bg alasan mcm2 tknk lepak sama ?

Please la su .kte rindu gler nk keluar dgn su .nk sembang dgn su .nk gelak sama2 dgn su .nk baring2 sebelah su ,pastu cter mcm2 . :'( kte mengaku la yg kte awkward nk call su ,nk reply tweet su bagai .sbb kte tau yg su tkkn layan kte mcm dulu .well ,kte kenal la su mcm mana .and kte sedih ble su layan kte mcm kte tk prnh rapat lngsng !

Well ,nothing to do and to say anymore .sbb kte tau ,sekali su marah ,selama nya su marah .tk payah tipu kte .mmg la time kte call hari tu su kata tk marah kte .tp cara su layan tu ,semua org blh tau la .hmmm ,last word .i really love and miss my old bestfriend .im sorry for everything :((

Sunday, October 6, 2013

Tikl ..miss the memories .

I miss my school life .hmmm .miss tikl .miss my friends ,miss my bestfriends ,miss buzanians ,miss dahlians ,miss my teachers and especially the environment .hmmm .tgh best2 focus study tetiba nmpk gmba tikl .terus mood down gler !rindu maryam ,my adik angkat .one and only my adik angkat . :((

Teringat yg dia prnh buat special card for me .and she put it in my diary .last day dia nk balik rumah tu ,aku tertidur .so tk sedar pun ble dia balik .sedih gler la sbb tk sempat say goodbye .lusa nya tu ,aku bkak diary ,kad tu jatuh .aww ,so sweet la dia .hehehe

Ble aku baca kad tu ,aku nangis kot .terharu sesangat sbb ada someone yg appreciate aku mcm tu .hmmmm .mar ,akak rindu mar .rindu nk lepak atas katil mar and dgr problem mar . :((

Mood dh down and swing ,so semua notes ,tuto aku campak tepi .tkde mood lngsng .and i tweet "really need someone to talk to" .and guess what ?daus terus wassep tnya okay ke tak .and akim wechat tnya knp .hmmm ,tiklians always make me feel secure and happy .diaorg caring gler !thanks a lot guys :)