MFM :)

haihhhhhh ,even type his initial name ,i can smile like crazy . :D hahahahah .cant even imagine how i smile if he is infront of me .heheheh .

who is MFM ?okay ,mybe most of my friend already knew his full name .but i still wanna tell everyone his full name .MFM is stand for MUHAMAD FAIZ BIN MAHFUDZ .proudly said ,he is my one and only sweetheart .my bae after my lovely parents and family .*wink wink kenyit mata* hahahahahaha lol

never expect ,never dream or even never crossed my mind that he will be this important in my life .still remember the very 1st time i talked to him .it was during blood donor program that held in ADK .time tu la baru kenal spe faiz sbnr nya .mst terkejut kan .time blood donor program tu dh la time sem 2 .kata satu kelas ,how come sem 2 baru kenal ?HAHAHA .time sem 1 ,tk pandang lngsng kot dia .even nama dia pun aku tktau time sem 1 tu .hahahahahah .teruk nya lahaiiii .yelaaa time dulu kan dh friendzoned semorang ,mana la nk perasan dia .hohoho

pastu ,after tu baru la start wassep .aku pun lupa spe yg start dulu .hahahahah .wassep everyday ,celik mata smpai la tutup mata nk tido .haha .time tu still kawan la .yela classmate kan ,tkkn nk buat sombong sgt .dia plak melayan je aku mengarut merepek semua .hahahaha .then bebudak kelas find out yg kteorg sllu wassep ,mmg apa lgi la kan .kne bahan habis2 la .hahahahahaha .kambing btol ,semua membahan smpai aku yg mulut bising ni pun tktau dh nk defend diri sndiri cemana .hhahaha

thennnnnnnnn .i dont know how can i fall in love with him .hahaha .starting from stranger and now be one of the important person in my life .pelik kan ?hahahah .hmmmm ,hidup ni mmg pelik pun .never imagine kot i can have this kind of relationship with him .hahahahah .taktau la cemana blh tersuka dkt bdk comel sorg tu tetiba je dah suka .hahahaaha lol

and how he tell his feeling to me and how this relationship begins ,it is a secret .just let only both of us know .heheheheh .but wanna tell you tht the way this relationship begins ,it is soooooo rare okay .RARE !hahahhahah .how funny it is when i remember our conversation on 1st march .hahahahaha .comel sgtttt tau !hahaha .bkn nya puji diri sndiri comel .the way he tell me his feeling tu yg comel .hehehe

others said "the mature relationship is when they in love in silence way without anyone knows" .hmmm ,but for me .i proudly tell everyone that i madly in love with him .why ???bcs having him as a lover is a blessed . :)
i date for marriage and that is why i really proud to tell everybody in this world bout him .is it too early to think bout marriage ?naaaaaaaaa ,this kind of thinking really have to throw away from our typical malaysian mindset .there is no "too early" okay .hmmmm .im already 19 y/o .

hahahaha .tetiba teringat our conversation .tht time ,i told him in sem 1 ,i never realize him .and know what he replied ?he said "hmm dlu pun aku tk suka kau .sbb bising sgt .sllu la jgk kutuk2 .dh la dlu kau selekeh" *ayat tu bkn nya la sebijik dia reply mcm tu ,i forgot already the real sentences* haha . BUT !!!kuangjaqq gler la ckp aku selekeh .eeeeeee .hmmmm tp ada la btol sikit apa dia ckp .ble scroll2 balik galery ,tgk gmba2 kelas .dlu2 mmg selekeh la ,i admit it .hahahahaha .
alaaa ,pegi kelas buat apa nk lawa2 ,bukan nya nk ngorat org pun .hmmm ,tapiii selekeh2 pun .ada jgk org tu yg sangkut kan .hahahahahah .k gurau ,gurau je .jgn marah *kenyit mata dkt echot* hehehehe .

okay ,last but not least .he is my biggest strength and my biggest weakness after my parents and family .even an hour in a day im not talking or having conversation with him ,my mood could turn to very horrible mood : worse than during my hormon changes .haaaaa ,see !!how important he is in my life .hahahaah .simply said ,he is my pill of happiness :)) hehehehe .without him ,my day is the worst and long day ever !!! hahaah *terasa over plak* haahahaha

after all ,i love you and proudly repeat it .i love youuu .hahahhaha .k should stop .kang ada yg muntah darah plak sbb bce entry gedik ni kn .hahahahhah .kbye ,assalamualaikum :) *kenyit mata dkt echot* heheheehe

if i have the time machine

can we turning back in time ?

how i wish i have the time machine .which i can turn back the time where we have a very long conversation ,without just "ohh yeke" "hmm okay" .the time where i can see your effort to talk to me first ,your effort to make it work .dont you ever realize ,there is no more "love you" at the end of our conversation ?hahaha .i just remember one picture you'd sent to me when i dont reply your "love you" ,there is a quote : "what is the worst way to respond to "i love you" ?"........."massage seen" .ha ha ha .
im not asking you to rply it but at least show me some effort .i know ,it is not fair to measure your love thru you say 'love you" or not .but ....*sigh* i dont know what to say anymore .

do you know what the worst feeling ever ?
caught you still keep in touch with ..........yeah ,you know who is it .no need to mention the name here .im not mad .i am NOT .im just jealous perhaps .
am i controlling him ?!!ohh my god .it is really not my intention .*double big sigh* .HAMIIIIIIII .wake up pls .

mybe there is a reason to leave him .but there are millions reason to stay with him .perhaps ,countless reasons to stay madly in love with him .
why ?
bcs i love him and will never let him go .bcs i feel blessed to know him and loved by him .too many things he had sacrifice for me .and one of the best thing ever is : see him in front of me .accompany me when i told him i feel fucking bored here .hahahah .

ya ALLAH ,i really be grateful to YOU bcs give me chances to know him ,to meet him in my life .i couldn't asking more ,just let him be my zauj to guide my whole entire life .ameenn .hehehehe *k tetiba rse gedik plak* HAHAHAHAH lol .

i accept him the way he is .and its okay la kalau setakat tk rply "love you" tu .you no need to say it ,i can see it thru all your actions .and im sorry if i controlling you .seriously ,it is not my intention at all !and sorry for the first pharagraph in this entry .that is only my thought and no need to take it serious .hmmm .mcm tk bersyukur plak ,merungut itu ini kan .hmmm how awful i am .dh kne layan mcm princess pun tk reti bersyukur .urghhhhhh .hami hami ...mohon hantuk kepala tu sikit dkt dinding !haish .

baru dia rply "ohh yeke" "hmm okay" dh merungut .ntah pape .tak fikir plak yg dia snggup naik moto drpd shah alam dtg sini semata nk teman kan kau tu ?!hmmmm .snggup kne hujan bagai .apa kau fikir shah alam-subang tu dkt sgt la ?!ya ALLAH hami ,manusia apa la kau ni .tk reti bersyukur lngsng ! :(
k tetiba rse teruk gler .hmmm ,manusia .simply said .kesalahan org tu sng je nk nmpk ,kebaikan ?buat baik besar mana pun ,pejam mata je pura2 tk nmpak .*sigh* and im human too .make a lot of mistakes and tk prnh bersyukur dgn apa yg ada .haish .

if i really have the time machine .i couldn't ask to change it based on what i want .i just want to change myself to be a better person .manusia yg reti bersyukur sikit .hahahahah .sentap bak hang ayat .padan muka to myself .HAHAHA .

okay la ,should stop rn .but before that ,muhamad faiz bin mahfudz , im sorry bcs u dpt buah hati yg tk reti bersyukur mcm ni .hahaha .i promise tkkn merungut pape lg dh .really grateful be in love with you ,and treated like a princess .ahaks .after all ,i love you and fucking miss you .
kbye .*lambai2 tgn* haha .terima la lambaian tgn drpd manusia tk reti bersyukur ni .hahahahah k gurau .

assalamualaikum :)

Zzzzzzz ....

assalamualaikum earthians ....

heheheh .dah lama gler la tk update entry baru .hmmmm .tkde mse nk tulis pnjg2 ,after stop keje tolong cik man tu ,hari2 keluar !hahahaha .hari 1st pegi TS ,teman ayu carik kasut .ntah pape je jalan dgn ayu ,tak best lngsng la .ada ke patut baru berjalan tk smpai sejam ,dia dh ajak balik .eeee sakit je hati .pstu esok nya tu plan dgn ezzai nk lepak sama dkt kl sentral .sje sembang2 kan .plan nya berempat : aku, ezzai ,amir dgn chot .tapi echot kata dia stil dkt sabak ,so tk blh join .hmm aku okay jela kan dia tk blh join sbb dia still dkt sabak .tkkn la aku nk pksa jgk dia dtg sini .sedih la jgk sbb tk blh lepak sama ,tapi its okay la sbb kteorg plan nk jpe hari isnin tu ,nk pegi bookfair .tapi tetiba ezzai kata amir pun tk join sbb dia malas .eeeee ,ntah pape je .before ni ,si bdk ketot tu la yg paling semangat nk ajak jpe ,tetiba dh smpai mse jpe .dia plak tk join .menyirap jgk la time tu .so tkpe la ,dating berdua je dgn zai .
TAPIIIIIII .yg buat aku suspicious gler .instinct aku kata echot sje tipu kata dia tk blh join tu .then ble smpai kl sentral tu ,amir dtg dgn chot .buat suprise laaa sgt kan !!!!kambing btol !memasing menipu aku .so btol la instinct aku tu kan .HAHAHAHAH .nk bangga jap .pastu ,mukh pun join sekali .hahahah .seronok gler la lepak dgn diaorg ! haish ...rindu nya laaaa .hmmmm .

hmmmm .
1hb start keje .keje dkt kedai baju kurung .sumpah la bosan nk mampos !tkde bnde nk buat .aku termenung ,tercongok mcm org tk btol je .dah la bosannnnnnn .bosan smpai aku blh laa mengarut merepek dkt blog ni kan .hahahaha .makan gaji buta btol !HAHAHA .ehh mana ada makan gaji buta k ,dh tkde bnde nk buat mcm mana .hmmm .tapi aku cmfirm time puasa nnt ,busy !sbb org sibuk nk beli baju raya kan .haish ...
keje aku hari2 ,ddk sesorg dkt kedai ,main wassep ,tgk youtube ,bce novel yg echot beli kan time bookfair ritu : satu janji ,pastu makan ,pastu termenung tahan ngantuk .*sigh*

k la ,dh tktau nk merepek apa .lain kali smbung .bye .assalamualaikum !

tenenene

Assalamualaikum earthians :) Hmm .its been a while tk update blog ni .dh berhabuk kot ,fuhh fuhh *tiup habuk* .hahahahah .since hbis pasum ,smpai skrg baru ada mse nk tulis blog .ececeh ,baru ada mse konon ,pdhal byk je mse nye .just kemalasan nk menaip tu dh smpai tahap 918197271891928283 la .hohoho .so ni kira 1st entry la after habis pasum ,1st entry dkt rumah .hehehe

Hmmmmmm .dh seminggu habis pasum .but till now, still nangis ble teringat semua memories dkt situ .*sigh* i miss my life there . :( especially my classmate .*big sigh* .echot ?*double triple big sigh* yg tu lg la rindu gler tahap cipan tau tk . :( hmmmm .tp nk buat mcm mana ,dia ddk sabak ,aku plak stay subang .mmg tak la nk jpe selalu kan .but sokay la ,long distance relationship kn sweet .hahahah .k ayat sedap kan hati .hahahahha .

Stay rumah ,sumpah lifeless gler la .luckily pepagi tu tlg cik man niaga nasi lemak .so tkde la bosan nk mampos ddk rmh en ,pastu dpt income plak tu .hohoho .sebut pasal income ni ,aku semangat gler nk keje .reason ?sbb nk gne duit hasil titik peluh sndiri nk pegi holiday dgn bebudak hami chot holding .HAHAHHAHA .mst wondering kn pbnde la "hami chot holding" tu .itu nama wassep grup .asal nama cenggitu ?hmmm ,aku pun tktau knp .sila la tnya spe yg tukar nama grup jd cenggitu .hahahah .k smbung balik reason nk keje tu .hmmmm .rse dh mcm dh besar en ,keje pastu gne duit sndiri pegi holiday .wuuu wuuu ,acah2 dah besar je .HAHAHAHA lol .

No matter what ,by hook or by crook holiday tu mst ,WAJIB jd !sbb rindu nya nk lepak reramai lagi .hmmmm .miss everything :( Teringat time malam time makan ramai2 dkt ss2 murni ,pastu plan nk pegi uptown shah alam .TAPIIII !bebudak ni sesat plak dah .aku dgn chot kne tnggu smpai 2 jam kot dkt damansara tu ,sempat turun lepak mamak jap ,tapi bebudak ni tk smpai2 lg .haish ,menyirap je aku dgn chot time tu .tula padah nya kalau drive smbil main2 ,berkhayal ,berangan bagai .tak pepasal je sesat . Pastu ,esok nya tu .plan nk main bowling dgn makan steamboat dkt subang .plan nya malam ,so aku dgn chot pun pegi la jenjalan tgk wayang siang tu ,tapi tk sngka plak la movie nya habis lambat sgt .prnh nmpk tak ,org keluar wayang ,rushing gler pastu jalan laju ya amat mcm nk tercabut je kaki tertinggal dkt blkg ?hah ,aku dgn chot rushing cenggitu la ,semua nya sbb takut lambat smpai .HAHAHAHAH .hmmm rindu nya time2 mcm tu :(

K dh stop throwback .simpan sikit air mata tu hami oiii .update blog pun nk nangis ke ?sumpah la cengeng .lol .hahahahhaha .btw ,dh nk maghrib kot .better stop skrg .lain kali plak update blog ye :))

kbye .assalamulaikum .

tk payah baca . :P

assalamualaikum earthians ..

heheheh.one more paper left .yeayyy happy me is happy .hiks .hahahhahaha .hmm ,act tkde la one more sgt ,still ada dua sbnr nya .alaaa tapi last paper tu bi je ,so tk masuk dlm list nk stress2 .hahahahah lol .esok after eng math ,nk pegi main ice skating !excited gler la ..hahahah .tapi cmfirm esok jatuh tertiarap tergolek terguling2 bagai .hahaha .yela mana reti skating ,esok la my very 1st time nk try .dulu time bebdk tikl hang out main skating ,tk dpt join .hmmmm .

esok eng math and ptg td after balik exam hall tu terus tido .skrg gedik buang mse dkt sini plak .tuto baru tuto 4 ,ada lg 10 tuto kne study .hmmm ,acah2 dah pandai hebat sgt je smpai tk study kn hami oiii .ish ish apa nk jd la .mood nk hbis exam tu dh turn on .nk study pun tkde mood dah . *sigh*
kesian dkt budak2 hayat ,esok bio .hahahaha .kne baca hafal bagai .eyyy kalau aku ,mmg dh muntah2 la nk kne hafal lgi .semalam hafal chem pun dh jd separuh tk btol ,then hari ni nk kne hafal bio lagi .hmmmm ,bersyukur gler la aku tk ambik bio since sek lg .hahahahaah .part2 menghafal ni mmg aku fail !!hahaahah .tapi pelik mcm mana sej time spm dulu boleh dpt A+ .hmmm ,nasib je kot time tu ingt apa yg ckgu ajar .hahaahaha lol .

k entry mengarut dh habis smpai sini je .after ni entry gedik tahap boleh muntah .so sespe yg malas baca ,dh boleh stop smpai sini ye .hahahahah :P

"baru dua hari tk jpe dh rindu .mcm mana nnt after pasum?"-echot .
hmmmmm ,mcm mana after pasum ?aku pun tktau mcm mana nnt .haish .tknak habis pasum .plisss plisss tknk hbis pasum . :( lg brp hari je lg dkt sini ,after ni dh tk boleh jpe selalu .dh tk boleh jpe hari2 mcm skrg .k sedih !!!sedih sgt .hmmmmm .
long distance relationship .. "as long as you trust your partner .as long as you love him .trust me ,no matter what happen .no matter how far your distance are .the love still there and never fade away ." ...... keep strong hami .insyaALLAH everythng will be fine :) keep praying he will be your zauj :) ameennnn .hehhehhe .k gedik !stop being gedik hami .better stop right now .hahahaha lol .nnt muntah semua yg bce nie .hohohoho .

i dont know why ,i really happy with you.even hear your name can make me smile :) hahahaha *k gedik* .hahahahah .thanks sbb rela hati and tk penat layan kerenah aku yg mengada tahap petala kelapan ble dgn kau .penat kan layan mengada2 aku ?k kalau penat ,maaf la .you have to accept me as i am ! *muka garang* HAHAHAHHAHAHAH lol .
terharu laa ble kau sikit2 risau ,semua bnde nk risau .makan lambat pun kne bebel kne marah .tu baru makan lambat ,kalau tk makan .hmmmm tk payah ckp la mcm mana kne marah .smpai kne boikot tkkn wassep bagai .ish .ni semua gara2 sakit smpai muntah2 time keluar hari tu .hmmm ,salah sndiri pun hami oiii ,spe suruh mengada tk makan ,mmg la sakit .choiiii .hahahahah . tapi jgn la marah selalu sgt :( hmmm .
and ......everytime wassep mst kne story semua bnde .ishhhh ,smpai dh tktau nk cter apa tau tak .apa la salah nya sekali sekala tu kau plak yg story dkt aku .serious rse nk ketuk2 je mamat sorg ni .nk ketuk tapi tk smpai hati sbb sayang .hmmm .pastu kalau tknk cter ,merajuk bagai .rse nya before wassep tu ,mmg kne prepare story satu buku dulu kan .hmmm .hahaahahahahahaha.k jgn marah chot ,pliss jgn marah .aku gurau je part ni .hahahha .yela aku kn byk ckp so okay la dpt someone yg mmg rela hati nk dgr semua story aku tu even aku sndri rse story tu ntah pape .hahahahah .aku byk ckp ,chot suka dgr story .hmmm baru la complete each other *kenyit mata dkt chot* HAHHAAHAHH .masyaALLAH ,gedik nya aku malam ni .hahahahha .

muhamad faiz bin mahfudz .
i love you more and more and more .love you to the moon and back .hmmm to the moon and back ??no no .*geleng kepala*sbb to the moon and back tu mcm dkt sgt je .so , i love you to the pluto and beyond !! ahahahaaha lol .:))

k rse nya dh boleh stop gedik2 ni .jom la sambung balik berjimba dgn eng math .esok still ada exam hami oiii .wake up, wake up .hahaha .kbye

assalamualaikum :)

Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz ....

assalamualaikum :)

esok chem 4 ......hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .biar 'hmm' tu pnjg2 sikit ,nk describe betapa pasrah nya aku dgn paper ni .organic chem is killing me !! urghhhhh .hmmm ,sedih .sedih sbb time dkt sek dlu ,the most most most and most fav subject : chem after addmath .*big sigh* .tapi ble masuk je foundation ,chem jd one of the sbjet yg aku paling paling tk suka .hmmmm *double big sigh* .
haish ,hami .wake up syg .never compare sek dgn foundation .time dkt sek dlu mmg la semua nya sng je .normal la kan ,makin lama makin susah .sabar k . keep fighting !!!

hhahahaha lol .esok hardest subject tpi skrg boleh lg menggedik menyemak dkt sini .hahahahahah . :P hmmmm ,banana already .too much things ,reaction to be memorize .arghhhh ,dah tepu otak ni .baru hbis 2 lecurer pnya topics ,still have 2 more lecturers .aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh ,nk jerit la ,nk jerit !!! mcm mana esk ni .tknak keluar exam hall nangis mcm time physics 3 tu .hmmmm .k malu tetiba bila teringat nangis time tu .eeeeee malu nya !!!ntah pape nangis dkt exam hall ,dah la ramai org .ish ,tapi time tu dh tk fikir pape kot .dissapointed gler la sbb last minute baru sedar lagi satu soalan tak jwb . *double triple big sigh* 10 minutes left and time tu baru perasan tk hbis jwb lg ,mmg sempat sgt nk buat kannnnn .hmmmm :( k sedihh ,sedih yg teramat !!

then ,kalau tknak nangis esok ,study la wahai hami syg oiiii .ish !hahahahha .mcm org giler plak talk to myself .heheheheh .hmmm lantak la .told you already ,yg otak dh tepu dgn segala mcm reactions yg aku sndiri pun tk sure akan ingt ke tak .haish .so decide nk membebel kjp dkt sini .heheheheh .

tak sabar nya lahai nk habis kn exam ni .after final ,semua semangat nk ajak keluar .merata tempat la bg idea nk keluar mana ,nk buat apa bagai .kecoh dkt group wassep tu ,tapi ble dh last nk suruh decide ,semua senyap sunyi !!! dh agak akan jd mcm tu ,since dulu lg .kalau plan nk keluar ,semua kemain semangat bg idea mcm2 ,ble suruh decide ,evryone like "suka hati la .aku ikut je" .then ble dh org lain tlg decide kan ,byk plak mulut2 yg berkata mcm2 ,questioning everythng .tnya knp dkt situ , nk buat apa nnt , and blablabla .ehhh ,hellloooooo !korg sndiri yg kata "aku ikut jela" kan !
mcm time nk celebrate new year tu ,kjp nk pegi sunway ice skating la ,mandi sg rumah ezzai la ,pegi waterpark la ,picnic tasik la .at last pegi cosmoworld jgk ,pastu bukan nya semua pegi pun .ada yg bngun lmbt bagai .eyyyy menyirap je .
then now ,first nak pegi broga hills ,tetiba nk main paintball plak then laser tag ,ada plak yg ajak main boling ,pastu nk main pool bagai .ehhhh plisss la .idea melambak ,tapi ble last2 tu suruh decide ,evryone disappeared !hmmm ,nak marah .syg budak kelas .nnt jd gaduh plak dh last2 dkt pasum ni .if only if plan ni tetiba tak jd , mmg senseorg aku heret pegi zoo .lepak puas2 dkt zoo tu ,spe bising aku campak je masuk dalam kandang harimau ke singa ke .hah padan muka . kenapa zoo ? k aku pun tktau knp zoo .tgn ni laju je taip pegi zoo .hahahahahah .bongok pnya hami .nmpk sgt otak mmg dah tahap kritikal .haish ,gara2 chem 4 la ni .hmmmmm .

hmmm ,baru sedar pnjg nya bebel .hahahahahahha .mcm makcik2 plak bebel2 ni .hmmmm hmmmm .hahahahahah lol .hami dh tk btul .maaf la kalian semua ye :P

dh puas bebel tetiba tktau dh nk ckp apa .hami hami *geleng kepala* hmmmm .really have nothing to say anymore .sooooooo mari la sambung berjimba dgn segala-mala chemical reaction yg kne hafal ,nama2 structure nya lg .hmmmmm k hami jgn merungut !study !!!! "bila kamu tidak tahan lelah nya belajar ,maka kamu akan menanggung lelah nya kehidupan"-imam syafie .
hah sentap tak dgn phrase tu ?hmmm ,jom la sambung study ye . fighting !!!! hahahahah .

k chowwww .assalamualaikum :)

a week left .

hiii there,

1 more week left .........
haish , its sooo heartbreaking when i think bout the reality .reality that i just have only one more week or probably less than that to spend time with my lovely one ,friends ,classmate and others .yeah ,maybe i just hate the life here : PASUM, bcs im not being the one that i wanted : pandai ,result gempak ,best student as in tikl and no more "budak pandai" here .there are sooo many reasons why i hate life in here ,BUT ......there are also thousands or maybe countless reasons why i dont want to ended this foundation .hmmmm .wanna cry when think bout it .i just hate being in this kind of situation : counting the day to end all of these . *sigh*

hmmmm ...3 more papers to go .act 4 ,but it is english paper ,not so important ,so ignore it .HAHAHAHA lol .been through a week full of stress and sleepless but alhamdulillah im still alive .hohohoho .alhamdulillah bcs im done with 5 papers even tkde la yakin sgt jwpn tu btol .hmmm ,tktau la future after pasum ni mcm mana .arghhhhhhh , cant even imagine how is my life after this .*big sigh*

k dh tktau nk ckp apa sbb tk plan pun tulis entry ni .hmmm ......jom la study for 3 more papers onwards .fighting !!!!  hahahahahaah .and the most impotant think is : lets gain countless more memories here :)

bye and assalamualaikum  .